MASTERKEYWENDYHT – BLOG – WEEK 17 HERO’S JOURNEY – signing off “in Honour”

I’m trusting that my signing off is from Grief rather than from Denial. In any case, I’ve been unable to get myself caught up to the point where I can actually be experiencing the MKMMA programme 100% on a daily basis. So, I’m signing off, as Mark said, “in Honour.”

I plan to go back to the beginning of our MKMMA material and work through the material at a pace that I can handle while also spearheading “Integrating Childhood Reflexes” (particularly the integration of the Fear/Paralysis Reflex) to Canada and beyond.

I would like to thank Mark J, the Fabulous Davene, Trish, the wonderful guides and our Digital Connections team, LindaSue88 for introducing me to the MKMMA programme in September, AND each and every one of the members of the MKMMA for your wisdom, your willingness to share with others, your inspiration, your creativity, for making this programme so wonderful…and for the 102 of you who have followed my blog. Please know that I’ll continue to send you much love and encouragement for your journey to the end of the 2015-16 MKMMA programme.

For me, the programme simply developed too quickly at a time when I was completely exhausted from my travels across Canada teaching and doing private sessions over the Fall. I did my best – yet did not maintain 100% once the additional activities were added.  So, a special thank you to my wonderful guide, Lorelei, who this past week gave me some great suggestions for how to find a way to get back on track with the programme. I’ll use her wisdom when I get to the point of adding all the extra activities – which was where I stumbled.

I’ll miss the experience of the Alliance – reading everyone’s comments, questions and blogs – you’ve been incredibly inspiring for me.  I feel that if I’m truly to experience the MKMMA programme fully, it’s better that I sign off from the 2015-16 session in honour, now. I know I can I find and use my creativity for the extra activities if I simply slow down so I can smell the roses while I work my way through the programme on my own this time. And, if I’m accepted back into the programme next September, I feel this additional work on my own will make all the difference to the way I work through the 2016-17 programme.

Blessings and Mahalo to one and all.

Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love Wendy Humphreys Tebbutt

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35 thoughts on “MASTERKEYWENDYHT – BLOG – WEEK 17 HERO’S JOURNEY – signing off “in Honour””

  1. Aloha Wendy! Sorry to hear, but truly understand. We will miss you.
    Wishing you all the best. Stay in touch.
    Mahaho!
    Peach be Your Joureny
    Dan the Man

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  2. Oh so sorry to hear you are leaving us. Your blog of accomplishments inspired many. But, I am sure you gave it a lot of thought as to what was best for your journey. Wishing you continued success, great health and peace . Sincerely Connie

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  3. Wendy. I’m sad you’re leaving us. I understand your feelings about lagging a bit behind. It has many times been a lot for me.
    Take care, I will miss your lovely posts.
    Mahalo for all your kind replays to me as well.
    Aloha 🌺💕

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    1. Aloha Sherry, I’ll still be blogging 🙂 And I’ll still be following the blogs I’ve followed since Sept 27th 🙂 Mahalo for your kind words. I look forward to reading your future blogs. Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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  4. Good for you in recognizing what was best for you. “In honour” definitely. Miss reading your posts, but the invite is still standing to pop me an email to let me know if you’re in the island and have time for a visit. Hugs to you my friend 🙂

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    1. Aloha Carole, My guide, Lorelei, says it’s absolutely fine for me to continue to blog and also for me to comment on the blogs I’m following. So, I’m thrilled to continue to follow the blogs of the wonderful people I’ve been following for months now. I’m simply working from outside the programme. In order for me to receive the full benefits of this programme, I needed to be able to stop and review the material at my own pace. To have pushed on would have been too overwhelming for words. Lorelei gave me some wonderful advice on how I can best go back and add on the layers and layers of tools we have. And so I’m feeling very much at peace. In fact, today, I did a little muscle monitoring for an Attitude / Essence and what came up was: “I make the commitment to kindly, gently, lovingly and supportively be true to myself by following my inner wisdom.” I may not be on the playing field right now, but I’m definitely in the bleachers cheering everyone on. Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy my friend. wendyht

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      1. Hi Wendy, Sorry to see you, or anyone, step away from finding their true greatness and calling. While I planned to get on my soapbox and encourage you to stick with it, I realized that it would be breaking my new blueprint of trying to be the silent non-opinionated observer :-/ I believe that I can tell you that I completely understand what you are saying that you are going through…because it sounds like the battles I have. “Overwhelming” is what I fight and I give the devil no satisfaction by allowing guilt…isn’t that where guilt comes from, to control me any longer! All the guilt I could manifest by how much of the lessons I do not do is washed over in my mind now by all the things that I am doing. I am blessed to be in your greatness. Believe

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  5. As Mark J said once you stretch the mind it never goes back to original form, thank you for sharing your experience it touched my heart only you know what’s best follow your bliss always and forever. Thank you again for stretching my mind.

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    1. Mahalo, Wes, for your kind words. I’ve discovered that I’m allowed to continue to blog and to follow / comment on other people’s blogs, even though I’m working my through the MKMMA material on my own and at my own pace. So, I look forward to reading your blog posts in future 🙂 Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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  6. Wendy we will miss you. May I ask you to continue to blog your experiences. These are our blogs and it would be great to continue to connect with you. Our class is has many weeks left and after that do we all just let each other go? I think we could keep working together or at least communicate? I am sure we all learn from each other. Whatever you decide is great and I support you 100%. It has been a pleasure. Love and Joy…Believe…Karen

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    1. Aloha Karen, I don’t know what happens with the blogs when people either leave prior to the end of class or at the end. I’d love to keep in touch. I’d been pondering getting another free blog site, now that I sort of know what to do ;-)) you can always email me at wendy.rmt.bg@icloud.com I would love to keep in touch 🙂 Mahalo for your comment, Karen. Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love wendyht

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      1. Wendy that is your blog. WordPress does not ever delete your name but you can change the url to another blog name. I am putting your email in my contact list. So you add me to yours. Blessings on your journey… It has been a pleasure.

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      2. Hi Karen, Mahalo! I’ve put your info in my contacts and have deleted both sets from your comment post. Mahalo again. I really look forward to continuing our blogging and communications. Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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  7. I’m sorry to hear that you’re leaving. I’ve had some catching up to do too. Thank you for sharing your heartfelt and honest post. Is given me much to think about. I hope you do take the course again in the fall! Take care.

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    1. Aloha Chris, Another of our MKMMA members has actually asked me to keep blogging as she’d like to keep in touch. For me, it’s not a quit, it’s a “begin again and do it at a pace where I can absorb all the things it’s important for me to absorb” and also do it in combination with the wonderful work I do 🙂 So, unless the system cuts me off, I may be able to continue to blog 🙂 I’ll go “follow” you so that I’ll receive your posts and I’ll happily comment on them to keep in touch. Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love wendyht

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    2. Mahalo Chris. I’m glad to say that a week on and I’m still actually happy with my decision. I’ve caught up on some sleep 😉 And I’m getting some of my important work done towards my DMP :-)))
      Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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    1. Aloha Yvette, Mahalo for your comment. I have found peace – for which I am so grateful. I do intend to continue blogging, as some people have asked me to do that. I’ll simply be studying and writing about the material at a pace that works for me. I wish you a great 9 more weeks! Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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  8. Sorry to hear Wendy. I am perfectly imperfect and continue to follow through as my perfectly imperfect self. I figure that I will be continuing the journey post March and definitely re-doing in September. After all, it is a journey. Keep in touch!

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  9. This makes me sad and happy at the same time. Sad that you are taking a step back but happy that you have made a promise to yourself to continue your journey and your growth in the understanding of MKE concepts through independent study. I salute you for doing what you needed to do. The purpose of the course, after all, was to develop the capacity to think independently. You are still a part of our class even if your path diverges for now. Keep in touch and keep your promises! 🙂

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  10. Aloha Rip, Bravo for holding to your new blueprint – I’m so proud of you! Since my “work” – actually my “life’s work” – is brain-body-sensory-motor integration, I have a consultant/instructor’s inkling into my “overwhelm.” Putting that together with the fact that my business must now support the household, and having had a trauma occur at Christmas, and noticing that my brain integration was not where it was before Christmas, it really was necessary for me to step away from being “active” in the MKMMA programme, at a less than optimal manner. It’s important for me to do some of my own brain-body-sensory-motor integration work to overcome the effects of the trauma and so be able to begin creating ways for my business to flourish. I’m still “doing” MKMMA, I’m still using the tools I have from MKMMA – I’m simply doing the work slower, more thoroughly and more meaningfully for my nervous system, and therefore more “honestly” for me. I am very conscientious and I took Mark’s words to heart about it being more honourable to step away than to continue while giving less than 100% to the programme. Mark is very wise. I’m now doing my brain integration work, I’m following my DMP for work locally and creating a DMP for my client work via Skype. There’s been much trauma in the first 30 years of my life and so if I feel I need to sit with certain components or chapters of the MKMMA programme a bit longer in order to get the good of the teachings, then that’s what I’m now allowing myself to do. So, it’s just a stepping away from the structure of the programme for now. My heart is still with you all – supporting you all – and I’m able to take the time to hold everyone in my heart. Mahalo for all I have learned and for all I continue to learn from you and from my other MKMMA blog buddies. Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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    1. Thanks for the great reply. Something you touched on bothers me now: “…being more honorable to step away than to continue while giving less than 100% to the program.” This is my second time around…yet I feel that I might have given more the first time. I won’t step away because I feel that even something is better than nothing. …and I did just terminate a 30 year career last week that I know I was only able to do with the help and guidance of the MKMMA. Does anyone ever allow themselves to feel that they are giving 100% to the program? I was always more of a red pencil – seeing what I was doing wrong…

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      1. Aloha Rip, Mahalo for your comment. Please do not think I’m even remotely suggesting that you’re not giving 100%. I think the 100% “thing” is akin to the “rock bottom” “thing.” My clients have, in the past, found me when they hit “rock bottom” – mainly because I work outside of the medical system. Each person has their own version or experience or perspective of “rock bottom.” And, so, I think it is with the 100%. You had a full time job of 30 years that you were working at the same time as doing the MKMMA programme. That’s a very full load. My 100% experience was recognizing 2 things:
        1 – my brain integration needed some work to overcome the effects of the trauma that occurred in December and so be able to actually do my WORK work.
        2 – I was floundering in all but my reading of the lessons, Og, my DMP, Blue Print Builder and getting my blog written. Well, I guess I did spend a lot of time reading other people’s blogs and commenting on them – and participating somewhat on the Alliances. However, as soon as the cards, movie poster, watching movies, etc. came along, it was just too much for me – on top of wearing the PR, secretarial, writer/designer, consultant and teaching 4 modalities of classes across Canada HATS in my business. I could also see that I would be best changing one of PPN’s to True Health – and, at 65 yrs old on Feb 19th, I decided to begin paying attention there too.
        So, your idea of 100% for you, and my idea of 100% for me, are simply 100% – and it’s absolutely fine for others to observe us from outside and see exactly that…and that we’re both doing what’s right for ourselves. You now have 8 more weeks to give your possibly new version of 100% to MKMMA – and I wish you great success 🙂
        Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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  11. I’m not thinking that you are suggesting that I am not giving 100%…I am telling you that I am not giving 100% …or I would not be doing anything else every day, it would feel. 😮 It does take soooo much time and I am a slow learner. You sound like me as far as daily habits…and I became so overwhelmed as they kept piling the work on also. 😦 I just thought it better for me to stay engaged and do as much as I could and be happy about what I was able to do…secretly hoping that I would eventually be able to do everything the way I was supposed to. Please understand that I am not making any judgement about you. I just wanted to show support and offer myself to help in any way that I could, if I could. It definitely sounds as if you have a full plate and a game plan. Best wishes and I’ll pray for your speedy return to the MKMMA habits. Blessings

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    1. Bless you, Rip. Many thanks for your email. Your thoughts are much appreciated. And I wish you much success with finishing this 2nd time through MKMMA. Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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  12. You still have the greatest parting gifts — continuing love from your classmates, and unbelievable tools to keep moving your life forward where YOU want it to go. Wishing you fair winds and following seas on your journeys!

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